I often wonder where we would be right now if I had not made changes in our lives back then. I know I wasn't at my best when Daniel was first diagnosed with his illness. I was a complete mess. No one back then would have even known that I was a struggling mom. I always put forth the biggest smile and said "I'm fine." That seems to be my most favorite answer when going through the rough times now a days. That's the closest to being positive I can get right now. Without the changes that occurred after Daniel's diagnosis, we would have been totally lost in the system. The system sucks and I dislike hearing the stories from parents I've met about the struggles they have encountered just when asking for help. It is never explained to you. There are no heads up about the complicated life you are handed along with that initial diagnosis of bipolar, schizophrenia, or depression. Yes, there are books to read and they are very helpful. I read a lot of them to help me understand. I found myself being drawn to autobiographies and true life experiences rather than the text book idea of what life could be like if you followed their expert advice. Listening to someone, who is willing to open up and share their experience is always better. I wish I had that person back in the day, when all this started. I feel that it would have helped me cope with it all and kept me from building that emotional block that I struggle with now. I hope that I can be that person for someone that needs perspective. Look me up if you need me.
Have a great week and enjoy your Sunday.
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