As I sit here and type this up, I'm trying to figure out if things are officially back to normal. I guess the best thing to be is honest and sadly I don't know where we are at right now. Daniel was discharged from the hospital on Monday. He seems to be in better spirits but I still notice how snippy he becomes when you ask him something or just respond to his question. We finally had a "family" meeting with his therapist. The last one was almost a year ago. It went okay...
I often wonder where we would be right now if I had not made changes in our lives back then. I know I wasn't at my best when Daniel was first diagnosed with his illness. I was a complete mess. No one back then would have even known that I was a struggling mom. I always put forth the biggest smile and said "I'm fine." That seems to be my most favorite answer when going through the rough times now a days. That's the closest to being positive I can get right now. Without the changes that occurred after Daniel's diagnosis, we would have been totally lost in the system. The system sucks and I dislike hearing the stories from parents I've met about the struggles they have encountered just when asking for help. It is never explained to you. There are no heads up about the complicated life you are handed along with that initial diagnosis of bipolar, schizophrenia, or depression. Yes, there are books to read and they are very helpful. I read a lot of them to help me understand. I found myself being drawn to autobiographies and true life experiences rather than the text book idea of what life could be like if you followed their expert advice. Listening to someone, who is willing to open up and share their experience is always better. I wish I had that person back in the day, when all this started. I feel that it would have helped me cope with it all and kept me from building that emotional block that I struggle with now. I hope that I can be that person for someone that needs perspective. Look me up if you need me.
Have a great week and enjoy your Sunday.
Keeping Warm in Texas,
I'm a mother with an agenda to save her son from the grips of his mental illness and stop stigma so that those who suffer in silence can seek help without fearing the worse. Join me on this roller coaster ride..you're no longer alone.