Thirteen months later, Daniel returns back to a mental health facility. Definitely not what I wanted to happen but we were going through a rough three weeks of constant outburst at school and home. This time he threatened to jump over the 2nd floor railing of his high school. With a history of one suicide attempt, I couldn't let that threat slide and something deep down told me he was serious. I don't know how it is I feel about this hospitalization. We've been having problems at home and things got out of hand that I decided it was time to take a break to re-evaluate our current situation. As many of us parents know, changes for our children can throw everything out the window. All the progress you have been able to make is gone at least temporarily. This has been the longest that Daniel has gone through a cycle since his last hospitalization. This one was different. He constantly argues and takes everything completely wrong. There is no compromising when he is at this point. It's not good when your youngest son knows more about what you mean when you say something and my oldest with a mental illness doesn't.
I saw Daniel yesterday and I must say he is still quite angry. I ended up leaving and the sense of failure and disappointment rushes in. After so many hospitalizations, the feeling should be familiar but it never is. It's a bad feeling that only parents like me in this type of situation can't shake off.
I will keep updating about Daniel till his discharge. Have a great Sunday!
I'm a mother with an agenda to save her son from the grips of his mental illness and stop stigma so that those who suffer in silence can seek help without fearing the worse. Join me on this roller coaster ride..you're no longer alone.